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The confession
Want to learn something I’m truly mortified to admit?
I didn’t have a professional resume until about two weeks ago…
What kind of 30-something doesn’t have a resume? One that’s very comfortable with the status quo and also one that is very afraid to take chances on new things. But I decided recently that I need to make myself uncomfortable again, so I went through my professional life, sorted out the statistics and came up with a resume.
My therapist asked me how the entire process felt. It was terrifying. Someone who has historically very low self-worth, I was about to find out just how much my time in the professional world was worth. *I’m still learning how to be nicer to myself* But once it was written up and presentable (my husband reviewed a total of two times), I could look at what I’ve done and feel good about it. I think I event felt confident about it. The process was painless and was just as annoying as completing analytics analysis.
So what do you do with a resume? You send it to a dozen or so people to judge. That’s horrible, right? However, I’m not confident anyone actually reads them. It’s just as likely a program that scans them for buzz words, a location, and a degree to determine whether to send to a real human. That’s another thing that stopped me from building a resume : the education section.
There’s education history there for sure. I was amongst the top of my high school class, but college as an undiagnosed ADHD girlie proved to be very difficult so I never got a diploma. I thought this would disqualify me from any job opportunity, and it still might, but now that I have my little resume and my cute portfolio, I know that it’s all I need to prove to someone (or software scanning my resume) that I’m at least worth an interview.
I’m not a very ‘check out how amazing I am at building a social media following!!’ kind of person, but I realize now that these details are not only important for my work, they’re important for me. I took a step back and I saw a timeline of my life and hard evidence of what I was able to accomplish during this time. See? I really am learning to be nicer to myself